Hi assalamualaikum, For the past 3 years since 2015 I've been diagnose with anxiety/panic disorder. Is it a disorder or a mental sickness? I know not all are brave enough to share this to anyone or in my case to the world. I cant really remember when was the 1st time I experienced the anxiety. But I sure hell remember how does it feel. It felt like the world around me shrinking, my heart pounding hard macam baru lepas berlari 100 meter. My hand sejuk and numb. Rasa macam nak muntah ,nak teberak semua sekali. Since it was the 1st time, masa tu I don't even know whats goin on with my body. Cant control and felt like I'm going to die. Its the worse feeling ever. Once I cant breathe when I'm inside the car. Me myself don't understand what my body is trying to tell me. Dalam kepala Ya Allah aku dah kena sakit kronik maybe. Mulalah panic fikir about my kids. Whose going to take care of them if I'm gone. Am I a good muslim ? Did I do what Allah want me to do? The
Hi assalamualaikum. ! It was a busy week last week .Chinese New Year celebration with the family in Ranau. We went there on Friday and I drove the car all the way from KK to Ranau...yes (path shoulder/flip hair). Well actually its not my 1st time driving to ranau but this is the 1st time that I drove with my kids and husband as a passenger. And its a bit foggy during that time. Alhamdulillah we reached ranau. Ive received a few of message from my messenger asking me why are my family celebrate cny? I don't blame for people who never live in Sabah before. So I patiently explaining to them why ..some of them even asked me if we eat pork during that time...Astagfirullahalzim LOL. Thru this family reunion I can see love has no boundaries. Beat it if you are a muslim or non muslim. We respect each others believes and never gets into our conversation. I bless to have a multiracial family and I'm glad that my kids was born and raised in this environment. From my mom side my own