Confetti Life

Hi assalamualaikum, For the past 3 years since 2015 I've been diagnose with anxiety/panic disorder. Is it a disorder or a mental sickness? I know not all are brave enough to share this to anyone or in my case to the world. I cant really remember when was the 1st time I experienced the anxiety. But I sure hell remember how does it  feel. It felt like the world around me shrinking, my heart pounding hard macam baru lepas berlari 100 meter. My hand sejuk and numb. Rasa macam nak muntah ,nak teberak semua sekali. Since it was the 1st time, masa tu I don't even know whats goin on with my body. Cant control and felt like I'm going to die. Its the worse feeling ever. Once I cant breathe when I'm inside the car. Me myself don't understand what my body is trying to tell me. Dalam kepala Ya Allah aku dah kena sakit kronik maybe. Mulalah panic fikir about my kids. Whose going to take care of them if I'm gone. Am I a good muslim ? Did I do what Allah want me to do? The ...

Hi assalamualaikum. ! It was a busy week last week .Chinese New Year celebration with the family in Ranau. We went there on Friday and I drove the car all the way from KK to Ranau...yes (path shoulder/flip hair). Well actually its not my 1st time driving to ranau but this is the 1st time that I drove with my kids and husband as a passenger. And its a bit foggy during that time. Alhamdulillah we reached ranau. Ive received a few of message from my messenger asking me why are my family celebrate cny? I don't blame for people who never live in Sabah before. So I patiently explaining to them why ..some of them even asked me if we eat pork during that time...Astagfirullahalzim LOL. Thru this family reunion I can see love has no boundaries. Beat it if you are a muslim or non muslim. We respect each others believes and never gets into our conversation. I bless to have a multiracial family and I'm glad that my kids was born and raised in this environment. From my mom side my own...

Assalamualaikum and hi to all. School holiday bermula sudah hari ni. Kena tepat 14hb feb 2018 bersamaan dengan Valentines Day. Why do we have to wait for valentines day to arrive than only we share our love, our gratitude? Lets start by sharing gratitude everyday. Shall we? I know kadangkala hidup ni tidak seperti yang kita rancang atau impikan. Kadang kita terlampau fokus pada apa yang kita kurang kita lupa pada apa yang kita ada. Kita lupa setiap hari kita berpeluang menghembus nafas bangun seperti biasa. Kita lupa kita dapat melihat dunia dan melihat orang tersayang kita. Lupa betapa beruntungnya kita di bumi Allah.Subhanallah. Gratitude atau dalam Bahasa melayu syukur (betulkan saya jika salah).Untuk kita rasa gembira setiap hari rasa syukur itu harus bagi saya wajib ada dalam jiwa kita. Melihat kelebihan orang lain boleh menimbulkan perasaan dengki dan iri. Jika rasa syukur itu ada tertanam dalam diri kita insyallah perasaan iri dapat di hilangkan. Well kita hanya manusia, sy...

Assalamualaikum 2018. Where shall I start?? 2018 sudah last update this blog is 2016. A lot been happening in my life and Alhamdulillah all is good. Alhamdulillah juga sebab rezeki yang Allah bagi. A big step for me dalam tempoh 2 tahun ni. Ada orang stay in my life ada juga manusia yang ku buang 100% dari kehidupan ku. Betul la quote mengatakan ada orang yg datang dalam hidup kita untuk memberi pengajaran dan juga di takdirkan untuk singgah sebentar. Namun ku bersyukur kepada Allah setiap kejadian yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Mula-mula agak sakit dan pahit bila reality hidup dalam hubungan persahabatan itu tidak berjalan seperti yang di impikan. Keikhlasan bersahabat itu tidak dihargai dan pengorbanan kita tidak di nilai. Susah senang kita menjaga silatulrahim tidak memberi aku kebahagian. Mungkin juga dia terlampau baik untuk ku jadikan sahabat dunia akhirat. Mungkin juga aku tidak layak untuk menjadi jirannya di syurga nanti.(insyallah) Aku redha dan pasrah atas semua ketentuan ...

2016. .yes 3 years since i last updated my blog..a lot been goin on with my life and our life as a family. And alhamdulillah  everything went well…My baby Raisya start her kindergarden school this year..Rania my eldest had her UPSR this ..and my amoi well she still being my amoi manja. I still am a stay at home mom, taking care my 3 kids on my own without a maid or living maid.Now i did a small business craft selling Namidori. Life pretty much the same. I guess Allah had His way and know the best for us kan. Insyallah gonna update more on this blog. This our latest picture.

aaaah nampak gambar kuali kecik tu..teringin la plak mau cr..pas masak trus letak atas meja ngappp trus..tak ya mau salin d pinggan bagai...tapikan nanti laki aku n anak2 cakap mami ni uda buang tebiat kali tau...adeh..tp akan aku cari gak kuali shomel ni...if dioramg tak mau pakai biar aku pakai sorang..ko hado?

The other day bangun pagi ja datang semangat 'Martha Stewart' masuk dlm badan..i dont know u guys but as for me selalu experience feeling ni...Tetiba rajin nak deco uma bagai. So konon2 first step nak buat rumah ala2 country home teringin lah uma wangi n berseri. di jadikan cerita c kak ton ni angkut la c baby ton to a nearest mini mart beli bunga...sampai ja waaah semangat nengok bunga berbagai-bagai..but to tell u guys flower is not cheapppp Noooo...its expensive aaaaaahhh.. Dipendekkan cerita c kak ton pun beli la bunga Pom pom..cantik ja warna purple gitu one of my fav color .Nasib tiada color turqoise if ada kak ton beli juga tau.So c kak ton pun senang la hati umpama dapat loteri 1 juta dlm bank. Lepas beli bunga c kak ton drive la p amik anak2 kak ton ni ...masuk ja anak sulung kak ton nampak buka suka la sangat umpana tak pernah nampak bunga bagai...dia p la hidu2 bunga pom pom tu wangi la sangat katanyer.. Dalam masa beberapa minit anak c kak ton bersin la bertalu-talu...

Celebrate Mothers Day with my mom inlaw and sis inlaws at Olde Town Lintas. Since my mom is not in town we celebrate without her this year. Nevermind tunggu dia alik than we celebrate together.Eating with families always been fun. im enjoying my food so did the kids. As a gift i bought my Mil a caftan fom Jakarta. Early this morning she message telling that the caftan fits her well and she loves it...fiuuuuwww glad that she love it hihihi...As for me this morning i woke up and there it is...a gift for me from hubby yeay!!! Automaticlly made my day....my eyes just pop up...sengih sampai telinga kak ton....tq darling hubby for appreciating me... I hope all of you momsie had a wonderful Mothers Day!! xoxo   

Assalam semua.I knowwwww brapa kali jua mau ckp, lama suda ndak upload blog...i know..macam mana mau upload mana fb,mana instgram, mana pinterest segala bagai la..semua pun mau upload penat kak ton.hehe.Lagi skang tiada maid jadi mmg hari2 jadi om la d rumah. Buat masa ni alhamdulillah anak2 membesar bagai kanak-kanak rebina.Aktif dan sihat.Termasuk juga ibu mereka kit sama membesar bersama anak-anaknya ..ko ada? Life so is good..less stress coz mayb i avoid myself to be close and involve from negative people and surround myself with positive people... Trying very hard to be a good mom ,wife,daughter,sister,friend...and not forgetting jadi hamba Allah yg taat...mudah mudahan...:) aamin....

Anyway hellooo and salam all..missing u readers( if i have one huhu)...as usual life has been up side down..:) let the picture do the talking.

Another big family event.Well its big for us family. My 3rd brother got engaged to a beautiful teacher(cicer) hehe.Semoga Allah memanjangkan jodoh hingga ke jinjang pelamin dan hingga akhir hayat...Aminnn...:)

Yup its been a while kan... lama gila ndak update sebabnya malas la tu.. huhu not really malas but no time since i hav to juggle everything on my own. Anyway 1st June tarikh yang bersejarah for my 4th brother.Kira dia langkah bendul la dari abang dia hihi. Takpa la what matters everything went well alhamdulillah.Majlis kecil dan family dari sandakan datang berkumpul itu yang penting. Tahniah di ucapkan to my brother Mohd Haniff dan isteri tercinta Liyana. Semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu amin...:)

Yup i know lama kan ndak update if rumah kali suda haunted ni blog.. since dr January tak update naa adakau teda kan?? Sempena April ni Harijadi anak sulung yg ke-8 tahun alhamdulillah.Sitti Rania Batrisyia nama penuhnya.Budak darjah 2 disekolah cina and proud to be her mom coz dia jadi ketua class di sekolah cina bukan senang tau :) Sambutan kali ni celebrate di uma ja.. with close family.:) Semoga menjadi anak yang soleh dan selamat dunia akhirat amin.....

Ku doa syukur buat Pencipta ku Allah swt kerana memberikan 3 permata hatiku yang cukup sempurna bagi ku.Ku panjatkan doa semoga Allah melindungi,memberkati permata hatiku.Doa ku agar permata hatiku ini menjadi anak yg soleh. :)

Hmmmm i consider myself more to shopperholic than a fashion addict..ada beza kaitu? Teda ba kan shopperholic bab suka membeli barang the reason beli barang pasal suda fashion addict ..ish aku pun pening tau ..neway mana2 ja la ..dua2 pun boleh gak hihi....

Cuba angkat tangan siapa ndak happy bila dia kurus? cua konok cua konok. .mesti ramai kan. . banyak yg bestnya if kurus ni.  aku buat entry ni bukan la aku mau kondem org gemuk ya bab aku pun bkn nya kurus pun. .size baju kadang tesasul gak p size L huhu. . (geleng kepala). . Neway aku ulang sekali lagi banyakkkkkk bagus nya if kurus ni. . bagi aku la kan. . bab aku pernah melalui fada kurus dan fasa gemuk ni. .dan aku lebih happy bila aku kurus sebabnyaaaaa. . a) Bila kurus ni beli baju ndak payah bertungkus lumus dekat fitting room tu cuba baju sampai 10 helai tp masi gak ndak ngam.Imagine ja baju tu d badan trus boleh beli . . betul kannn aaah b)Since dekat pasaran ni kebanyakkan baju utk org kurus maka keberangkalian tuk dpt baju lawa mmg la tinggi. . c)Bila kurus ni banyak jimat masa. .refer sebab A. . ndak buang masa mau cuba baju berguni guni. . d) Org kurus ni jarang dapat penyakit .  betul kan . . majoriti la. . e)Bila kita kurus org ndak cakap eleh c kuru...

Well well its been quite sometimes aku ndak beli kasut ..since ada baby baru ni mau beli kasut pun mau kena pilih yg betul2 .. comfy and tahan lasak... tapiiiiii bila kew terpandang kasut ni aduuuuh hati ku berdegup kencang dab dub dab.. naa ada kau .. teda kan.. tu sebabnya aku beli ni kasut..ni kasut sesuai pakai ngan skirt or seluar pun bleh..looking forward to wear this shoes.. hmmmmm mau pakai d mana ya.... how bout Jakarta?? ngeh ngeh

Assalamualaikum olls..since ni berkenaan hijabers so kena bagi salam dulu jadik lebih afdhal orang cakap. Jus recently Hcs buat 2nd gathering for the opening of 2012 ..jus a simple get together sebelum mesyuarat agung nanti ..insyallah..d samping jumpa sisters of Hcs photoshoot pun ada tau.Would like to say thank u to all paparazi yg sudi amik gambar kitaorang yg shomel ni ahaks..;) Neway we had a good time as for me im havin a good time got ta meet friends and minggle..sambil2 tu begaya sakan dpn kamera.And most of Hcs members ibu2 muda yg punya fashion sense yg superperb..chomel2 semua tau ..if u ladies would like to know more about this community do visit here www.hijaberscommunitysabah.blogspot.com .... wassalam :) peace!

Salam, wohooooo where shall i start? Mak aai if di ikut banyak la sangat mau d hupdate niiii! ! So i think i round uo semua sekali la ya mix cam rojak bleh, ok lets start. Been telling u guys From my baby Raisya lahir and now she`s already 6 months and 13 days pun belum buat hupdate lagi. . huhu. And now this is her. .tambah noti and manja . . bucuk anak mami ehehehe. . ober plak. . The opening of my boutique ,yes butik suda buka 3 months ago.Alhamdulillah its doin good . can u imagine as soon as tempoh berpantang abis me trus kick start buat biz and i do it all alone from painting to design to material tp bukan la me yg do the hard labor me jus pointing2 ja but still hard you knowwww. from stocks to ironing at that time staff pun lum ada tq to my lvely helper Ms rania and Ms Rihana and mommy dearie not forgrt my darling hubby ngehhh for trusting me to do this biz luv u muaxxxx!!. and im proud of myself . .and the outcome tadaaaaaaa. . picture below . before and after and my helper :)...

I dont want to say anything until its over...huhu